---everything seems to be going wrong---
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
nearly 1/3 of the yr has passed..and my conclusion is the start of 2005 really sux..nthing good seems to be happening..and everything seems to be going wrong..sun even noe how to describe wat i am going thru..is it a torture..or is this really jus part and parcel of life..maybe it might even be my retribution..to wat..i also dunno..wat eva.. dun uds y in my freaking 21 yrs on earth..ppl always enter and leave my life as and whn they are happy..no matter how much i may treasure the frenship..is cheating in this world such a common thing to happen..i really hate the life i am in now.. how would u define a close fren..someone whom u tok to abt anything..even if there is any misunderstanding there is sure a way to solve it..it all depends on whether we wan to forgive and forget ant..but whn i already make the first move y can she jus be more relax on the situation..is it a muz to be hit back to square one..whr we no longer tell each other anything..jus bcos of a unhappiness and willing to give up the entire frenship..sometimes really dunno wat descibe and r/s in the world.. its so freaking fragile lor..any mistake can cos u to be super dishearted wif the other person..can also cos u to lose trust in anyone..last nite i was chatting wif this guy whom some how used to create a impact on my life..if anyone of u all read abt the post on the guy i noe at CB...anyway..we were chatting for fun whn sudd he ask me wat is trust..and i told him empty promises..i admit tht i wanted to hint him something abt wat he said last time..but he replied.."depends on how u define the capacity of ur bottle"...seriously i was stunned and blur..i didnt noe wat he was trying to convey to me..in the end he explain to me tht..if i expect alot frm 1 person promises thn the capacity of my bottle is big..so no matter wat tht person does..it will nt be able to fill it up...i was quite impressed by wat he said..but tinking back i tink it was true also ba..anyway it doesnt meant anything.. now i am jobless..i already admit..i went to apply for a few jobs but i dun get any reply..this isnt the greatest fear..the greates fear i have now is -y do i still have to face the fear of another person who might leave my side..1st was amy..now..i also dunno wat to say..i jus hope she will some how come to her sense and really let the bond bet the both of us to be stronger and nt jus give up jus lyk tht..
4:03 PM
Y Y Y
~~~~~5566 Autograph Session on 10/04/2005~~~~~~
Monday, April 11, 2005
yday..was the day which i really look forward to...but thn due to some situation..i didnt get upclose to see renfu..really feel sad...but thn at least did manage to take pictures of them..which is super clear using my fren cam..which can digital zoom..anyway let me start my story liao haha...yday..i left hme quite early lah..ard 930..i noe nt as early as the rest of the real supporters of 5566 haha..thn i meet my fren at sembawang mrt on the way...we went to IMM...we saw the crowd..it was quite messy..cos the actual queue only starts at the front..while at the back there is no queue at all..all u see are barricades..but there are gaps bet certain barricades..and everyone is squeezing their way thru it hoping to get closer to the stage..but thn my fren and i decide tht we go and get something to eat first..cos its still kind of early haha..oopx..so we went to long john silver and have our lunch..aft tht we went back to join the queue ard 12...and this time the crowd is kind of worse..and everyone is lyk pushing under the blazing sun..so as expected..many of them start to faint..and 5566 was late yday cos they were rushing dwn frm some other place...finally they reached at ard 130..they sang "Yuan Dian" and "Chun Zai"...this is the first time they came to singapore under the company of warner..thus the company did present them some awards...and i tink..yday all of them are in very good mood esp xiezhi...i tink he really tok alot and nt in those very serious tone..its more to fun and happy tone..so are the rest haha..and renfu is kind of hyper haha...aft the performance...they start to prepare for the autograph session..thn everyone starts to push forward and really cramming those in the centre and many ppl faint bcos they deprive of water...me and my fren in the end also couldnt really take it liao..decide to leave the queue first to buy drinks and join back the queue..but who noes..whn we came back the policemen and security guards already stp the queue..we were so sian...thn we came up wif a sol...tht is to get the attention of those who are queuing thn ask them to get the autograph for us..luckily yday..each person is entitle to sign 3 albums and the even lucky thing was they did nt state tht the 3 albums muz be diff haha...so i manage to get an aunty and her son to help us sign..at first i ask one of the meimei..but thn she chose to ignore me thn forget it lor..really thank tht aunty alot..BUT...the worse thing happen...that is the security guard allow us to enter..and the 2 of us..really feel lyk slapping ourself sia..its lyk we so near the entrance to enter again..but cannot go in cos we do nt have the albums wif us..and best thing is aunty already coming dwn frm the stage liao..haiz..thn no choice we couldnt do anything except stand there & take photo..really very sad lor..haiz..but no choice..jus imagine if we nvr get the aunty to sign for us and the guards did nt allow us to enter..we will get nthing in the end lor..so somehow its a lucky thing also ba haha...aft tht the session..the guards open another entrance to allow us to get in or rather closer..and take picts of them...but thn again..my unavoidable habit occur again..i did nt take the chance to look at them in person..in the end i keep focusing on taking picts of them..which is rather sian and low morale..nt the first time liao leh..everytime also the same thing happen wan..haiz..tinking bad i really feel very upset leh..although trying to convince myself in other ways..but find it rahter hard to accept the reasons i can come up wif haiz..anyway i am glad tht i am able to at least see them...aft everything me and my fren were super tired liao..cant imagine myself standing so much since sat till yday haiz..haha..but thn as usual reach hme still kana nag frm my mum haha..and the best thing is i got tan..and only on my hands..omg..so ugly lor...the area where i wore my watch and the area tht i got tanned was super obvious..so can imagine how "fierce" the sun is haha...punishing us for queuing haha...wateva!!...but aft all it was quite fun lah..as long as there is a companion who lyks the same thing as u..u will njoy wan haha...thts all for yday..i shall nt contd today stuff here liao..haha..too long...^_^
10:39 PM
Y Y Y
~~~~9th April 2005~~~~
Sunday, April 10, 2005
today have been quite a tiring day...or rather since wed nite..i have being feelinf quite tired...haha..simply bcos went clubbing tht nite thn didnt slp well..hehe...today i really woke up super early..every yr there is 1 day i definitely have to wake up very early..cos need to go to cemetery to pay respect to my grandfather...now is the qing ming jie..i forget wat is it in eng liao haha..anyway..i woke up at 615...which is freaking early cos i am really super tired...hehe...my cousin keep nagging at me cos she feels tht i am harming myself by coming back so late since wed...in the sense tht she say i need more rest..hmm..which i agree ba haha..but thn i am already rotting to the extend of decomposing already liao leh..haha..but thn i guess evertone really should try to get as much slp as possible hehe...k anyway went for breakfast aft tht..and reach hme ard 10 plus..slack ard bath and i am all ready to go out liao haha..cos need to meet yt to go to SIM to reg her course..in the end meet her ard 12..really trying out luck to see if i can reach the bus stop b4 the bus she is on arrive haha..we were lyk praying hard..o/w she would have to alight and waste bus fare again haha...and i manage to reach the destinated bus stp & board the bus she was on haha...thn we went to SIM..jus as we were abt to reach the main office..we saw ping and her fren janice..and the worse thing was i thot she had lesson last wk instead of today..this isnt the prob..the prob is she met me only on mon and i mistook everything as last wk..i tink i am really getting super old lor...OMG!!...who can save me...haiz..anyway..aft the registration..we went to the food court and have our chatting session as well as get something light to eat..the canteen was lyk...a super old version of Marche..haha..i tink i dun have to go into details...jus imagine it urself..should say old version should say poorer version..haiz..aft tht ping & janice went back for lesson..while me and yt went to cityhall for the TMC academy open house...anyway..only today thn i realise ceratin things..which i really too lazy to type out liao haha..all i can do now is jus to wait for the result of the application..& i need to have a back up plan incase the application fails..but thn i still left which a degree frm TMC or SIM..OMG!!!...y do i have to choose again..kill me thn..haha...aft TMC we head to funan...walk ard..thn went back to bishan..cos we decide to go for the mayday and li sheng jie mini concert haha..anyway since we also dunno whr to go or wat to do and since we knew tht there is a mini concert thn we jus go and take a look..moreover she also miss them v much..haha...i took quite a lot of pict for her haha..but dunno how well it will turn out..hopefully its presentable haha...anyway the concert was quite a nice one although the schedule seems a bit tight at j8 today..and li sheng jie really sing very well leh...and mayday really bring the crowd to the peak...its quite fun..haha..even though i am nt crazy ovr them sometimes i guess its all abt influencing haha...now i am feeling excited too..cos few more hrs ltr i can see 5566 liao...really wish to see them..but thn i tink i am feeling very tired now lor..hopefully i will have the energy tml haiz..i really muz da qi jing shen lai haha...hopefully the weather will be good..and the crowd..haiz i dun even dare to imagine..jus pray hard tht wont be too messy and most impt is able to see them..haiz i tink i end here liao..haha...
12:18 AM
Y Y Y
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