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September Updates

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

September is abt to over soon..somehow time really flies..

Tinking back i seems to be busy wif alot of things..i nt sure hw come i can be so bz till the extend tht i hardly had the time to rest..

Sept have nthing much for me to tink back too..everyday i jus lead my life as it is..studies wrk and sometimes meeting him..most of the time are spend on studies and wrk..nt much time for any other activities except wkends ba..hardly even have the time to really rest at hme..even if sudd ask me to stay hme whole day i do feel lost..cos i dunno wat i should do either...

in terms of studies and wrk i seems to be struggling lyk hell..partly im rather afraid tht my studies couldnt make it..where to start..rather lost abt it..sometimes its really tired to tht extend nthing can be done to replenish tht tiredness..and felt rather turn off whn tinking tht i should acyually study..its really mentally and physically stressing..

i jus wish tht i had better time management..sudd a qns pop up in my mind : will better time management allow me to feel happier..?? Feeling organised..is it the same as leading a happier life..hmm..nice qns for me to tink abt it..prob is i dun even noe how i should handle my time..hmm...haha..

9:01 PM
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Updates...

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Im happy...u noe y..some how i feel all my probs are more or less settled ba..things have already sorted out bet individuals..and thank god world war 4 didnt occur..hehe..so im glad at least all of us can remain as frenz..whether if we will remain as good fren best fren or wateva it all depends again ba..

i noe i haven been updating for 2 wks..but far too many things have happen till i dunno where should i start frm..and i am really quite tired frm studies to wrk and other miscellaneous probs..although life have been quite happy go lucky for me..but some hw there is this stress within me also..a stress tht seriously i dun even tink i had b4..stress over studies..can u imagine tht..since the very first day..i have been stressing almost in every lec..till this wk..haha im starting to uds wat is going on..but everytime the qns tht was asked is so familiar yet i had no ans to it..wow..i also dun uds y is it lyk tht..haha

anyway..Im in quite a happy mood..haha..i dunno y also..partly maybe its bcos i already found the one whom seriously have the ability to make me go bonkas over him..and this is the 1st time i am letting all my dearies noe abt my r/s wif him thru this blog ba..act more or less most of u already had an idea tht im attached already liao ba..

to me he is really 1 swt guy ba..showering me wif love, care & concern..but how long will it last i also nt sure..partly maybe now is honeymoon period ba..this r/s is really 1 r/s which is totally diff frm the prev r/s i had..the feeling is jus so different..i dunno how am i going to describe it..cos i cant descibe it now too..i jus feel pampered once in a while..and seriously only now thn i realise tht to be pampered or rather to have someone who really taking care of u..is really a wonderful thing..i jus feel so 'xin fu' lor..haha of i hope this will last ba..

One thing we had to struggle was the obstacles we had in order to meet up..too many things are really preventing us frm meeting up..frm studies to wrk to personal life..everything seems have to rearrange..we had to try and bal out our time management..hopefully able to meet up whn there is free time..and according to our calculation..act 1 whole wk( including the wkends)..all the hrs total up is really less thn 2 days..the most it hit will be 2 days to 3 days..kind of pathetic..maybe to some of u..u all tink tht its okie at least we get to meet..i agree wif tht..cos some of them..their bf might still be in ns or overseas etc..but to me i tinks its far too weird..whn he isnt in ns..neither is he far away frm sg..its lyk he jus any normal guy studying..but thn we ended up being occupied wif wrk...maybe im jus nt use to it ba..aft all my prev r/s is lyk almost everyday i sure get to see them and its really lyk nvr had space for individual..anyway there is pros and cons..hehe..lazy to list them also..

so pls nxt time if i tell anyone of u all tht i meeting him or how often u hear it..dun give me stupid remarks/comments..i will jus ignore wat u r saying..cos i had enuff of those boh liao comments..hope u all can try to uds my situation ba..but of cos im nt saying tht i will nt meet any of my dearies lah..i will sure make time for u all too..but try nt to let me noe too last min..cos seriously..since sch start..most of the times everything are planned b4 hand..so sorry if i had to reject any one of u..but i will try to squeeze time for u all wan k..dun worry abt tht..hehe..if its plan b4 hand sure no prob wan..hehe..

anyway..thts abt it ba..hmm..let me see..i cant tink much also..cos im feeling damn tired and shagged now..i didnt had a gd rest for the past few nites..jus couldnt slp..haiz..i tink i better turn in early tonite..haha..

9:32 PM
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PYRO's Gathering

Thursday, September 08, 2005

its a waste by right i should be at the chalet on mon..but thn who noes i will fall sick..and ended up only go in on the 2nd day..whn on mon seems lyk we have a full attendance at the chalet leh..sob sob..y of all the days i only fall sick on tht day..haiz..

on the 2nd day i went in..i realise i miss quite a lot of fun haha..seems lyk the other nite was quite happening..but whn i was there..it was okie lah..cos only left wif 9 of us staying over..6 guys and 3 gers..but thn my ogl left in the middle of the nite..cos he gt something on in the morning..

tht nite was kind of crazy too..although nthing much to do but we played some games as usual sure involve alcohol..but it seems rather funny..on my right side the guys dun seems to be drinking alot..but thn on my left side they seems to always be the one drinking..i tink i drank half a cup only ba..the most is 1 cup cant rem liao..haha now i recall..cfm is 1 cup..cos 1st cup really wans my life already...cos its the drink i hate most..thn followed by another half cup in the 2nd game..sianz..

by rite i tried to escape frm playing the game..but thn they keep nagging at me..so i tink give it a shot wont be so unlucky to kana so much..in deed i wasnt the worse one..another ger..she really super high sia..tht she totally lost the sense of pain whn the other ger beat her...poor thing..but she keep laughing non stp also haha..as for me aft tht i stp playing..cos i dun tink i can take it anymore..moreover..i tink someone will be very pissed off whn he read this ba..cos i promise him i wont drink wan..but thn..eh..sorrie k..but the person who is the most drunk was sh..cos he happen to kana forfeit so many times and there are a few cups seems to be rather 'thick'..dunno wat is tht wrd to describe also haha...

thn aft tht round all of us went to bed..funny thing is we are trying to squeeze5 ppl on the bed..which is bad enuff who noes another guy came up and chat thn tried to squeeze in..in the end sh and another ger went dwn to slp at the mattress dwn stairs leaving me cm and another 2 guys...partly y one of the goes dwn is bcos she cannot tolerate ppl snoring beside her ear..and aft she left..the worse thing tht happen to me was..2 person snoring beside me and i am bet them..so i was lyk kind of stuck not knowing wat to do..ending up wif staying a wake almost the entire nite..nvr in my life will i look forward to the day whn im freaking tired..omg..and worse thing was i was lying by my side facing the guy the nxt thing i noe was..im stuck in tht position for 20 mins liao..sux..cos the cm's head was jus behind my back restriciting my movement..getting up is also a prob sia..until she moved over thn i can turn over..haha..

in the morning b4 we chk out..we were toking there..and all of us are laughing over the discussion hehe..and cm and the other guys keep apologizing to me..haha..cute ppl ya bleahz..

thts abt it lah..but during this nite some of them did share certain probs they used to face ba haha..so it seems lyk another chance to noe them better also hehe..

seriously i tink my grp was rather okie lah..isnt tht difficult to get along..more or less they are willing to open up too..esp the guys haha..which is a good thing...hehe...

hopefully will have a chance to gather wif them again hehe...

3:20 PM
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The Real Me & My Love Style??

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

The Real You

Is this the real me..haha..i'm nt sure also..its for u all to judge ba..thn let me noe again whn u all see me hehe..bleahz..dun really agree to it also haha...maybe certain parts ba wahaha..

You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.
You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

What's your personality love style?

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

1:45 PM
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Chk this quiz out!!

Try this quiz if u r free ba...i find it rather true for the results as in most parts..
http://quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

1:36 PM
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Let me go!!

Monday, September 05, 2005

I jus wan to be free from all problems..is it tht difficult..y do i have probs piling on top of me..one aft another..i jus wan to get back to the prob-free life..but y do these probs lyk to come all at 1 shot..tinks its fun is it..it sux lor..probs tht drag for months and yrs..everything is coming at the same time..i am really at the verge of escaping frm all these probs tht is occuring now..i am at the verge of going crazy and breaking dwn..but i no one will care or realise tht also..i am also the person involve..some how indirectly also the middle person..wat kind of shit am i in now..can some one tell me ant..1 person taking wateva blame tht appears..trying to solve probs but in the end everyone jus turn a way..

Do i really deserve this kind of treatment frm u all ant..i apologize whn im at fault..even whn im nt i still to do tht..i give in be it if its rite or wrong..i jus keep wateve sacarstic remarks or comments that is made..i act as nthing happen and laugh along..am i crazy or wat..can someone pls enlighten me..

i jus try to please everyone to keep them happy..to me seeing ppl i noe happy i will be happy too..esp close ones..im nt someone gd at expressing myself..maybe thts the major prob..but sometimes i dun uds how on earth can these end up wif whole lot of probs dump to me waiting for me to settle..and who the hell do i turn to whn all this rubbish come at 1 shot..and where the hell are the solutions..1 refused to tok the other refused to forgive..

many things are unexplainable..no one can uds the kind of torture i am going thru..if everything thru explanation would be able to settle thn in the first place arguments wouldnt have occur..

i really need a break...

3:37 PM
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Life Have Changed!!

Thursday, September 01, 2005

okie i noe its been 11 days since i last update my blog..but there is really nthing much for me to say..haha..

past 11 days was lyk quite busy and tiring..having to struggle bet wrk and studies is wanting my life..but thn 1 gd thing is at least i met him..someone who is more or less there for me whn i really need someone to lean on..a nice and swt guy hehe..at times may be a bit naggy..oopx..hehe..k k anyway nt to mention too much abt him..ltr one of my dearies will defintely get jealous thn come aft me haha..bleahz..some how life have indeed chg a bit for me..

actually i jus realise something..somehow i really owe one of my closest fren(one of the unexpected guest who read my blog quite often) an apology...i dunno y..but somehow i have been tinking back abt wat happen to the bond bet the 2 of us..i guess main reason wasnt all on her..i guess its a struggle i had within me at tht pt of time when she got attached..yes i am happy for her but thn at the same time wat i believe tht i reacted tht way was bcos i feel tht i have somehow lost something at the same time..

thus i started to choose to drift apart frm her and let her spend more time wif her bf..although she did stress alot of how much she cherish our frenship but it seems to fall on deaf ears..i really feel kind of bad..tht is y i always tell ppl..i always belive in something tht is close fren will nt be able to be get along wif ur bf/gf..although i can get along wif her bf but some how i seems to find it hard to accept it..its until recently thn i kind of uds wat is wrong wif me and start to realise the foolish mistake i made of letting the frenship goes..

we did tok abt wat is going wrong..but thn at tht time i totally get blinded by the fact tht i was the one who is suppose to wake up my idea..and i dunno y i took so long to realise this freaking prob tht i had within me..its lyk sudd i noe how she is feeling whn she gt attached..the struggle bet fren and bf is lyk quite tiring and torturing..i guess i wont feel as horrible as her..cos i tink i really am a big headache to her at tht pt of time..

anyway i hope the nxt time whn we meet up everything will be back to normal..but the worries i had now is tht the history might repeat again nt on her but thn..on others..i dunno if it will or will nt..but i hope it wont..

now all i hope is tht i can balance everything tht i am having now..frm family to him to frenz to studies to wrk..practically everything lah..correct rite haha..nvr miss out anything also hehe..

anyway SORRY to my closest fren!!

12:05 AM
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